Top: Cavender's (currently on sale!) // Bell Bottoms: Plato's Closet similar here // Converse: ThredUp similar here and here
Since I’m wearing a crop top today I wanted to take the time and get something off my chest. For those of you who have been following my blog, remember the posts I would do on Thursdays about body positivity? Well I stopped doing that because I actually started feeling worse about myself. I have gained a total of 40 lbs since my last weight loss. I gained more than I lost. I actually bought a scale for my apartment but I didn’t buy it right away. I think I was afraid of stepping on the scale at the fear of what that number would be. Well, ladies and gents I weighed 185. That is the heaviest I have ever weighed in my entire life. Now I know to some 185 is a weight they’d like to be at, and I’m not saying that 185 is a bad weight, but for me, and looking at myself in the mirror it was not a good number. My target weight is maximum 160. After I saw that number I didn’t cry but I did get sad. I looked at the chocolate covered raisins that I had wanted to eat before I weighed myself and turned them down. I put them back in the cabinet and sat down for a minute.
I decided that instead of crying and being upset about the number on the scale, I would start doing something about it. I decided to start walking at lunch time, and eating healthier. No more junk food for me. I want to lose all the weight I gained or at least get down to 160 again. Since the above picture was taken I’ve lost a few pounds. I’m down to 179. Oh and when I say that I started walking during lunch time I mean power walking around the office building outside (it’s actually a really pretty view) and instead of eating pizza after a long day, I settle for a salad. If you added me on snapchat (username @monisia87) you would’ve seen my “sappy salad” from last week that I also snapchatted to my blogger bestie. Don’t get me wrong I did have a cheat day and I ate like a savage beast, but I was right back to walking the next day and eating healthy. I think cheat days are actually good. They are a reminder of how tired you can get after eating some chips and how terrible your body feels the day after. I’m not saying that I won’t ever eat junk food again, because I love my Taco Bell and Pizza (NJ/NY style pizza is the bomb diggity) but I definitely have taken a step back from it.
All of my massive weight gain (besides “relationship weight”) started in September after my accident. I was actually on my way home from a dance class that I had been doing for about a month because I wanted to start working out again but wanted to take it easy because of my knee. Well, I ended up getting rear ended at a red light at 50-60+ miles per hour. Talk about bad luck huh? After that accident I never went back to that dance class because my back hurt so bad, and still does. I never went to PT at the thought of having to be stuck with medical bills (which seems to be happening already unfortunately). So I stopped caring about working out and then after my birthday something extremely serious and life changing happened in my life that would yet again make me step back instead of step forward. Life kept throwing curveballs at me for the next few months after that and before I knew it, I ate my stress into another weight gain. In total I’ve gained 40 lbs since my last weight loss (2 years ago) but since the accident it’s just gotten progressively worse. As much as I love food, I definitely need to take care of myself.
That whole ramble is what brings me to today’s outfit post. Even though I’m extremely embarrassed about my weight gain, I still put on a brave face, and decided to put on a crop top. I thought you know what, crop tops aren’t just for thinner girls. Crop tops can be for everyone if worn the correct way. I decided to pair this crop top with a pair of high waisted bell bottoms and some converse. This is the perfect outfit for the Memorial Day Weekend coming up. Even though we all know what the holiday is truly about, it’s also the kick off to summer. This is the perfect casual patriotic outfit.
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